Searching for The Douen in Spirit of Borges’ “Mutations”

I wrote this possibly in 2019 as a treatment for a video for one of my songs off of my record “Quarrel”. I still believe in the vision I had for this record as the many visceral landscapes have not been achieved. But anyway, here is a glimpse of what I envisioned for one of the songs: “The Sea”.,,

They are the children left – descendants of the human race, whom survived the nuclear blast – after the collapse of the global empire.

The nuclear blast destroyed all infrastructure and further poisoned all natural resources, leaving the land and the sea barren.

Affected by the toxic radiation, many living beings died immediately… Those beings whom adapted to the poison, became radioactive mutants, passing this gene onto their offsprings. 

The life expectancy of anything became almost impossible to predict. As after birth, most beings experienced accelerated growth spurts. Aging exponentially in minutes, a baby can become an adult in a week, and if it survived the environment, dies of old age within a month. 

The remaining scientists developed a vaccine which blocked the growth spurts, but they were incapable of completely reversing the mutant gene which affected aging. So the life expectancy for any human is eighteen years, if that. They also were incapable of treating individual mutations; as the gene affected each human differently.

The human survivors live in the deep tunnels of once major hubs, creating underground shanty towns; or they populated caves until the rising tide flooded these temporary cities. The ever rising tide has drowned entire islands. The survivors have returned to an ancient practice of nomadism.

The survivors (ages seven to fifteen):

Gus – because of their mutation they can only communicate through sounds. Their best octaves are those of seagulls: shrieking a soaring through the permanently blood orange sky – which rains acid – and their violent cawing when irritated. They are also twelve feet tall (and still growing), with almost elastic like limbs.

Beau – because of their mutation they absorb matter, and when agitated they become an enormous glowing mass of blue atomic energy. Their vibrations is a magnitude! Electrifying all the relics that they and their siblings find broken. They believe they were once the ruler of the sea: The Blue Whale.

Pen – because of their mutation, they have gill like openings around their neck making breathing the already toxic air difficult. Their hands and feet are webbed and flipper like… They are oval shaped, making walking and running difficult. So on days the children have to run from the acid rain or rising tide, Pen’s siblings take turns carrying them on their backs. Pen believes they could swim as gracefully as a penguin in the Sea.

Elie (offspring of Beau) – because of their mutation their skin can easily create static. They can burn everything, so they cannot wear regular clothing. Because of their mutation they are capable of creating fire, and help keep them and others alive. They believe that in the sea they are an electric eel.

Buccoo – because of their mutation they change color and shape: expressing their urgent emotion in color, and mimicking their environment. Their most impressive and tranquil mimicry is changing into a tree… They recently discovered that their branches (their extended reach) had the ability to create buds which blossoms with various blooms of color. The children read about “Trees” on a tablet they restored. Buccoo believes that in the sea, they can become an entire reef where all can inhabit!

Scenes:

The children are performing a dance battle. Gus break dances at the start of the music. The musical instruments are from the relics, objects of the old world, which the children have collected and recreated to make sounds. When they are not scavenging for better shelter and food, the children perfect their instruments and dance moves. 

With their elastic like neck, Gus interchangeably shrieks up to the blood orange sky, as their dance gracefully soars like a seagull. They end with an infinity pose, while crying their best seagull. 

It is an invitation, as Beau takes Gus’s energy and magnetically recreates their shadow. While Pen’s webbed feet and hands pulsates vibes and sustains this interaction, both Gus and Beau dance like the image frames from the broken cell phones (relics) they restored. 

Needing each other, the children look at each other with an understanding. As they perform the synchronized group part for the dance.

There is an old folk tale which the children discovered on one of the relics. An old folk tale completely possessing them. It was the tale of a mysterious seacreature, called The Douen. 

As it was told, The Douen lured children to the sea. This folk tale of The Douen was older than any of the worlds the children learnt of, as the tale was used as a cautionary example to scare children from venturing into the sea or else The Douen will have you for all of eternity! 

The children were not frighten by The Douen. In fact, they wanted to find this mysterious sea creature, as none of them had ever experienced a “beach”… The sea of the old world was not what they’ve lived with. The children can all swim, but they all could never swim enough to survive the rising tide! 

After they all proclaimed their different stories of encountering The Douen, the children went to sleep searching for The Douen.

The Douen discovers their dreamings and visits their blood orange sky that rains acid. The Douen invites them into its ocean where the children became what they are:

<This is at the climax of the song, nearing the end where the guitar explodes alongside the piano’s garden forming flowers>

Bucco transformed into a reef garden, with ever growing green vegetation, while Elie sporadically electrifies this hiddenness, while Beau gloriously spews blue through their vibrating magnitudes, while Pen swirls, somersaults gracefully through the currents, while Gus keenly looks from above, gently walking barefoot, as they squeal a joy unimaginable.

The Sea

Did You Get Home, Safely…?

◦ The dream of mine that is forever dreaming, which last further into a tapestry of how exactly we are supposed to exist, but loudly refuse… Loudly, I can experience a created, an excellent

◦ A supposed accident surprise, a cross between the differences of a completely unexpected want which you believe…

I am not be a believer of most things. But I believe that what I die from is true forgiveness of myself, and want to see me outside the things which brought us here, and continue to dictate our lives… Like I will die… So while I live…

When We See Each Other Episode 24

When We See Each Other Episode 24

On episode 24 of BTRtoday‘s When We See Each Other, I chatted with the amazing singer-songwriter Katie Kuffel. We talked about her latest album, “Alligator,” which dropped in March. The album itself is very nostalgic, dreamy, expansive, mysterious, haunting at times in the sense of casting spells. “Alligator” is available on all streaming platforms (and bandcamp), so put it on your playlist!!!

We also talked about how “Alligator” is different from her previous works, being queer in the music industry, how does identity influence her work, and how one of the tracks (1999) deals with inter-generational trauma. Check the chat out HERE.

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When We See Each Other is a bi-weekly podcast centering the work of BIPOC/queer/Trans/non-binary musicians/artists, and also friend musicians I’ve known for some time.

The pod gathers from a broad range of genres, stretching from spoken word to indie rock, pop, alternative, noise rock, hip hop, reggae, dance hall, metal, calypso, funk etc. The show is sort of a mixed bag, where artists are interviewed on their creative process, and how identity influences their work.

This podcast is produced by Stereoactive Media.

When We See Each Other Episode 23

When We See Each Other Episode 23

On episode 23 of BTRtoday‘s When We See Each Other (WWSEO), I chatted with queer singer-songwriter, dancer, filmmaker and just a phenomenal artist, An Only Child.

I caught myself fantasizing about being a modern dancer while listening to his music, and I really enjoyed talking with him, and learning about his process. Check the interview out HERE, and also his album “Prepare The Body,” which is available on all streaming platforms and Bandcamp.

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When We See Each Other is a bi-weekly podcast centering the work of BIPOC/queer/Trans/non-binary musicians/artists, and also friend musicians I’ve known for some time.

The pod gathers from a broad range of genres, stretching from spoken word to indie rock, pop, alternative, noise rock, hip hop, reggae, dance hall, metal, calypso, funk etc. The show is sort of a mixed bag, where artists are interviewed on their creative process, and how identity influences their work.

This podcast is produced by Stereoactive Media.

When We See Each Other Episode 22

When We See Each Other Episode 22

On episode 22 of BTRtoday‘s When We See Each Other, I chatted with Syrian-African American indie pop artist Shenna, and found out that she briefly studied at my alma mater, Howard University, the Black Harvard.

We talked about her single, “Try Another Taste,” why it’s so catchy and just a serious dose of serotonin! We even called out some of the pros and cons of living in NYC. Listen to the episode HERE.

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When We See Each Other is a bi-weekly podcast centering the work of BIPOC/queer/Trans/non-binary musicians/artists, and also friend musicians I’ve known for some time.

The pod gathers from a broad range of genres, stretching from spoken word to indie rock, pop, alternative, noise rock, hip hop, reggae, dance hall, metal, calypso, funk etc. The show is sort of a mixed bag, where artists are interviewed on their creative process, and how identity influences their work.

This podcast is produced by Stereoactive Media.

When We See Each Other Episode 21

When We See Each Other Episode 21

On episode 21 of BTRtoday‘s When We See Each Other (WWSEO), I chatted with singer/songwriter Mel Fine. We talked about their anthem “In Between,” coming out as non-binary, speaking your unapologetic truth, and more. Listen to the episode HERE.

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When We See Each Other is a bi-weekly podcast centering the work of BIPOC, queer, Trans, non-binary musicians/artists, and also friend musicians I’ve known for some time.

The pod gathers from a broad range of genres, stretching from spoken word to indie rock, pop, alternative, noise rock, hip hop, reggae, dance hall, metal, calypso, funk, etc. The show is sort of a mixed bag, where artists are interviewed on their creative process, and how identity influences their work.

This podcast is produced by Stereoactive Media.

When We See Each Other Episode 20

When We See Each Other Episode 20

On episode 20 of BTRtoday‘s When We See Each Other (WWSEO), I chatted with Minnesota Trans rapper Sci-Fi. We talked about Trans visibility in the hip hop scene, her creative process, her new single “Bloom”, which is available on all streaming platforms, and she blessed us with some bars. You definitely need to check her out! Her flow is so smooth and rich. You can listen to the episode HERE.

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When We See Each Other is a bi-weekly podcast centering the work of BIPOC, queer, Trans, non-binary musicians/artists, and also friend musicians I’ve known for some time.

The pod gathers from a broad range of genres, stretching from spoken word to indie rock, pop, alternative, noise rock, hip hop, reggae, dance hall, metal, calypso, funk, etc. The show is sort of a mixed bag, where artists are interviewed on their creative process, and how identity influences their work.

This podcast is produced by Stereoactive Media.

When We See Each Other Episode 19

When We See Each Other Episode 19

On episode 19 of BTRtoday‘s When We See Each Other, I chatted with the singer/songwriter behind the viral bop “Earth is Ghetto, I Want to Leave,” Aliah Sheffield. We talked about what inspired the song, how it became an internet sensation, and most importantly, which drink is evil, tequila or whiskey? Lol. You can listen to the episode HERE.

Make sure to check out Aliah’s Youtube channel for more of her music right here!

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The pod gathers from a broad range of genres, stretching from poetry to indie rock, pop, alternative, noise rock, hip hop, reggae, dance hall, metal, calypso, funk, etc. The show is sort of a mixed bag, where artists are interviewed on their creative process, and how identity influences their work.

This podcast is produced by Stereoactive Media.

Night Life

Night Life

I know I’ve been mostly posting about my podcast… I’m trying to change that, and write more poetry and stories. Unfortunately, the muse hasn’t been visiting me as often as I’d like, but the other night I was staring up at the moon, and it was so glorious that it inspired me to take this picture. I also wrote a short micro poem.

The boisterous winter windswept
it has its reasons, and I have mine
standing still to watch the Moon shape
itself in some many clouds, as the gravity
of everything spirals out all our debris in a dance.

When We See Each Other Episode 18

When We See Each Other Episode 18

On episode 18 of BTRtoday‘s When We See Each Other, I had a great chat with singer/songwriter, and my good friend, Mackenzie Shivers.

We talked about her upcoming album Rejection Letter, how women aren’t allowed to be angry, bringing children into a world that at most times seems incredibly toxic, and the process of being a creative. Basically, we touched on all the things!

I also played two singles from the album: “Martha’s Vineyard,” which was released in January, and “Afraid,” which dropped last Thursday. Both singles are available on all streaming platforms, and also Bandcamp.

You can listen to the episode HERE.

When We See Each Other is a bi-weekly podcast centering the work of Black, queer, Trans, non-binary musicians/artists, and also friend musicians I’ve known for some time.

The pod gathers from a board range of genres, stretching from poetry to indie rock, pop, alternative, noise rock, hip hop, reggae, dance hall, metal, calypso, funk, etc. The show is sort of a mixed bag, where artists are interviewed on their creative process, and how identity influences their work.

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This podcast is produced by Stereoactive Media.

When We See Each Other Episode 17: Medicine for Melancholy

When We See Each Other Episode 17: Medicine for Melancholy

On this episode of BTRtoday‘s When We See Each Other, I talked with poet and performance artist Stephen Jackman-Torkoff from the queer musical collective The Queer Songbook Orchestra. The Queer Songbook Orchestra is a 13-piece chamber pop ensemble based in Toronto that focuses on surfacing queer narratives in pop music. They released “Medicine for Melancholy” with Bonjay in November of last year. Check out the video for the track HERE.

It was a pleasure talking with Stephen, and they also read one of their poems, “Magic.” My favorite line was, “Be the flower you wish to grow in the world.” They also informed us on what exactly is miracle poop, lol. Listen to the interview HERE.

When We See Each Other is a bi-weekly podcast centering the work of Black, queer, trans, non-binary musician/artists, and also friend musicians I’ve known for some time. The pod gathers from a board range of genres, stretching from poetry to indie rock, pop, alternative, noise rock, hip hop, reggae, dance hall, metal, calypso, funk, etc. The show is sort of a mixed bag, where artists are interviewed on their creative process, and how identity influences their work.

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When We See Each Other Episode 16

When We See Each Other Episode 16

On episode 16 of BTRtoday‘s When We See Each Other, we had the first interview for twenty twenty-one with the queer Haitian country artist, DeLila Black. DeLila now lives in the UK, and she had a lot to say about tokenism, and what it means to be Black and queer in the country music scene. Check out our chat HERE or anywhere you listen to podcasts.

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This podcast is produced by Stereoactive Media.

When We See Each Other Episodes 13 & 14: End of Year Wrap-Up!

When We See Each Other Episodes 13 & 14: End of Year Wrap-Up!

On BTRtoday‘s When We See Each Other episodes 13 & 14, I wrap-up the podcast’s first end of year ‘best ofs’. On episode 13, I looked back on my favorite moments from the interviews with the eight artists invited on the show. Listen HERE! And on episode 14, I play all of the amazing music by these artists. Listen HERE!

2020 was a really difficult year, with many changes and loss, but I’m so grateful to have this podcast. Talking with the various artists was eye opening and truly a gift. I can’t wait to continue on this path in twenty-one, bringing new artists on the pod, as we discuss and explore their creative processes, and how identity shapes their craft.

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See you on the other side!

When We See Each Other Episode 12

When We See Each Other Episode 12

On episode 12 of BTRtoday‘s When We See Each Other, I talked with UK Black feminist punk rock trio Big Joanie. We chatted about everything, from their creative process, being signed to the epic label Kill Rock Stars, to what books they are reading. Also, two members of the band are writing their own books! Listen to the interview HERE.

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When We See Each Other Episode 11

When We See Each Other Episode 11

On episode 11 of BTRtoday‘s When We See Each Other, I chatted with the queer indie folk duo Tender Creature, and played a couple tracks from their album “An Offering“, which is available on all platforms. You can listen to interview HERE.

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When We See Each Other Episode 10

When We See Each Other Episode 10

On episode 10 of BTRtoday‘s When We See Each Other, I chatted with the politically conscious rapper, Billy Dean Thomas. We talked about everything, from the elections to what book they are currently reading. Billy Dean just recently dropped their album, For Better or Worse, which is available everywhere. I highly recommend checking it out! It was a real pleasure talking with Billy Dean, and listening back to the convo gave me hope for the future. You can check out the interview HERE.

When We See Each Other Episode 9

On episode 9 of BTRtoday’s When We See Each Other, I chatted with the multi-genre duo The Black Creatures from Kansas City. We talked about all the things: their latest album, Wild Echoes, gender identity, race, current books they’re reading…! Check it out! This podcast is produced by Stereoactive Media.

When We See Each Other Episode 7

On this week’s episode of BTRtoday’s When We See Each Other, I interviewed Blxck Cxsper, artist and founder of the Black Trans record label Trans Trenderz. We talked about the music industry and how Trans Trenderz is providing space for Black Trans artist. Check it out HERE.

BayBee TyGah and Me: An Ode for My Cat!

We are separated now.

Our communal bond severed into a mince of galaxies collecting into dust from a distance away.

I am grateful that you are still alive, even as our separation is a sort of a death.

Memories of seeing you leap into yourself and have the zoomies, and loving each moment of it. I am here in which ether points of being available are a reciprocity. Where I can no longer depend on you for the support you brought from the comfort of your tiger striped fur.

I sigh in a longing sense to not only feel your purring rhythm, which comforted me as I gently pet the wild part, the most visceral part, which you allowed, “Yes you may touch me.”

I keep thinking your crawl will bring us right back into this room of a heart where you’re used to, you will pounce onto the bed with a look of, “This is mine!”

I’m not sure what joy I brought to your life other than you ruled my universe.

When We See Each Other Episode 6

On this episode of BTRtoday’s When We See Each Other, I recap with some music from Anjimile, NYALLAH, Witch Prophet, and I also played new music from Bethany Thomas, Spring Silver, Jay Americana and Shelz. You can listen HERE.

This podcast is produced by Stereoactive Media.