My band uploaded a new song on our myspace page. It’s called Something In the Middle.
I can’t remember the details which lead to Something In the Middle. Maybe it was a day when one of us was so beaten down, that we just spilled all of our guts out. Because that’s what we do when we’re together, we spill everything out, everything that is trying to kill us. We sing louder, play harder, speak in tongues. We joke that our band practices are really therapy sessions.
Anyway, Something In the Middle is probably one of our most political songs (other than our very visible presence as women playing rock music) on our line-up.
Oh wait, it’s coming back to me now, how it all began. I was talking about the issues surrounding gay rights, and Hanna (bass player and vocalist), or maybe it was Maggie (lead guitarist and vocalist), made a scathing remark which lead to a beat, to a riff, to a refrain…
The recording is homemade, live at our studio. It’s not as polished as our previous recordings, but I’m digging the rawness. We used this really handy recorder that fits right in your pocket, Olympus LS10.
You can listen here: Something In the Middle
Something also reminded me of a poem I wrote a couple of weeks ago.
when tomorrow is just tomorrow
when we know that our phenomenal experience
isn’t as immediate as the phenomena expected
where Yeah exists.
I hope that these impressions stay with you
like the scars dealt to me for being open
as long as you live
I hope you live with just that amount of fear
living, breathing, preparing yourself for an attack
as you sit calmly with someone’s else’s blood on your shit: maybe it’s your own
wishing they were gone
as you sit and wait for Yes
to magically appear?
I’m still going to have Metal beating through me tomorrow
I’m still going to text my lover, I heart yous, and still be under-represented
infected with insanity, perversion, illegality
until I’ve been completely molded into something accustomed
I, continues, growing into a form
a persuasion for pettiness
and oh, I thank you God for my nose, eyes, and ears
because I couldn’t have reckoned without them
I couldn’t have survived this Love.